Life in the Durst Home

After a conversation with a friend tonight I could not stop crying because of the sadness  I felt in my heart. I realized AGAIN how thankful I am for my Husband a man who will be baptizing my daughter in a few weeks…  A man who can give me blessings when  weird and painful rashes covers my body (yes I am on meds). A man who puts up with my crazy thoughts and rants and rage issues. A man who works Hard to support our LARGE family so I can concentrate on the home and taking care of our kids.

I am So grateful for the missionaries that came to our home and brought that man into my life!

I am grateful for all 6 of beautiful healthy children who have been sealed to us in the holy temple of the lord..

I am grateful for the atoning sacrifice that Jesus bore to make these blessings possible.

I makes me sad to see someone who once had the gospel in their life but then lost their way.It makes me sad because I know  it can easily happen. Worldly things look fun and fascinating, Some things make you forget about your problems,, Numb the pain. But honestly it does nothing but bind us to burdens and consequences. I wish I could tear a little piece of me off a share with those that have lost their way or are stuck in the path, so they can SEE the light… I don’t want people to hurt of suffer like I once had, I want them to feel joy and peace that only the Gospel can bring…

I want the consequence that come with the good deeds… So once again I testify that I will strive to be more like Jesus and follow in his way~

IT has been a busy morning. All three of the kids played baseball at the same time! I walked back and forth between Devun & Zack game. They both won by the way!  Then we drove over to Marissa game to watch the last inning. Again another win !! YEaH!!! Go Durst KIDS!!!

Anthony came with us to Lunch, then I dropped him back off at the fields so he could umpire the next teams game. (he loves to umpire, but I love him home!!)

Then I picked up the paper work for Soccer. went home to fill it all out. Then we went back to the school to turn in paper work and pay for Soccer!!!!   I can tell you one thing, June cannot come fast enough. I love watching my kids play sports, and I love the self-esteem that comes with it. But this week we can either a game or practice EVERY evening until 7:30/8pm and I will be SO happy when that is OVER!

Soccer is so much better. Only 1 hour and then its over, NO MATTER WHAT! I love that!!!  This year Marissa decided that she DIDn’t want to play.. (too much running) So Devun, Zack & Ava are going to play. Ava is so happy she finally is old enough to play a sport. I know that she isn’t going to be as happy once she starts because like Marissa, Ava doesn’t like a lot of running. But I think it will be good for her to get out there and make a friend or two and get some excercise.

Devun can’t wait. He really wanted to play Spring Soccer, but we pushed Baseball since the other two were playing. It turned out to be a good push. He has had a lot of fun playing and now wants to play fall ball. But once he starts soccer he will be happy about that.

Zack doesn’t want to play any sport. He would be happy if we let him play the Wii all day long. But I told him until he is in high school he doesn’t have a choice about Sports. Once he is on the field he is happy. And again I love that it helps with Self Esteem ….

Mothers day is tomorrow. What have you done for your mother??? I haven’t even gotten mine a card. Yesterday I went to Target for Anthony’s mom and totally didn’t think about mine. Something has got to be wrong with me. Even though she IS in Jail she still gave me life and a card would be nice. I am waiting for Anthony to get home so we can pick her up a card, buy his mom a gift card for a spa treatment. I bought a nice basket, put a towel and bath stuff in it with a back brush then we are going to stick a gift card for a pedicure and spa day. She is the HARDEST person to shop for. I asked the kids what we should get her and what she likes and Ava said “She likes Dresses” and Marissa said “she loves pirates”~ then they both said together “let’s get her a pirate dress”… LOL So we did this instead…

I will tell you how tomorrow goes. The kids are going to make me breakfast!!!!    I am just so happy this week is OVER!!! Anthony was supposed to have a few hours of work and it turned into 80….. I barely saw him. Now tonight he will be working late again! I am going to get a few movies and have Movie Night with my kids. Buy them some candy and make a date out of it. That part will be fun, but I have to be honest I WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!!

He is doing a bathroom addition at a preschool and can only work during NONE business hours. THe job is supposed to take two weeks, Anthony broke into the floor yesterday and received  some bad news (NO crawl space) so he has to break the foundation…. We can add another week or two to the project. I really hope the next few weeks go quickly!  Don’t get me wrong I am very THANKFUL for all the work. again I just want my husband back!!!! No date night in two weeks can really get to a MoM.

Tomorrow will be nice, a whole day with the family! Something I am looking forward too!

I worked with Anthony last night trying to clean 1 of 3 of his projects. I worked from 5 until 9:45, and after being at Soccer from 9-3, by ten I was done.  I knew that we needed milk and Diapers for the kids but I just couldn’t get the energy to make a late night trip to the store.

When I woke up this morning I have to be honest for this story to make sense, I didn’t really want to get out of bed for Church. Then a quick thought came to me that I needed to go to Sacrament.  So I could hear my kids wanted waffles due to the lack of milk. I got up and made them some. I went to the garage fridge to get some juice and guess what I found an extra gallon of milk that I didn’t know was in their.

Anthony and I got the kids in the shower and dressed as well as ourselves, then ten thirty comes along and we cannot find Aubrey’s shoes anywhere.  during the search for the shoes however we did find about five diapers (just enough to get us through Sunday) A quick thought came to me that Aubrey’s shoes where in the car, and they where (even after Anthony claims he checked).  I really felt the breads from heaven…..

We got to church a few minutes late, missed the opening song. But I knew as I sat there listing to the Bishop Confirm the Holy Ghost on a new member of the church I was meant to be  there. I felt the spirit so strongly during the confirmation, more than I have ever felt. I wish I could explain it- but I can’t say it in words.

For most of you, you know that I have a problem or addiction to Coke A Cola. a few weeks ago I “knew” I needed to quit, but it wasn’t until a few days ago I decided that I would. I had Anthony give me a fathers/husband blessing to help me through this recovery. I suffered major head aches, major fatigue and lots of anger. however in his blessing it say if I was succesful I would have more spiritual experiences.

Sacrament was wonderful and very spiritual, and all the talks just entwined with each others. We went to a baptism this evening, and then came home and read scriptures and watched church history. It was a great day. However something is bothering me. I felt the prompting to go and visit family after the baptism but failed to listen, hopefully we can go tomorrow.

I would say already the lords promise has been fulfilled.

also a funny little note, I went to laurels class and it was on the word of wisdom. and a reminder of the blessing that come to those that follow it.

My goal- start going to the gym again tomorrow. It wouldn’t be so hard if I didn’t have to go at 5:30 AM. (Anthony leaves to work at 7, and doesn’t get home until LATE… and Until Sam is 6 months old he can’t go to the nursery there).

My goal is to cut out the junk food, (not going to buy it anymore) drink lots of water and go to the gym 3-4 days a week. I know that there are great blessing that come with the word of wisdom, and I think its silly that its one of the hardest commandments for me to follow. I WANT THOSE BLESSINGS! and I know that I can get them. Just takes discipline

Today our cats got shots & fixed. Pirate the orange male cat was not happy to be put in a box, and chewed his way through it. He was supposed to come home and relax in a quit room. I put him in the bathroom and he dumped out his water dish all over the floor along with some kitty litter. and then cried at the door until I let him out. He then went and tried to jump on the kitchen table tons of times, falling to the ground each time. (he doesn’t get that he just had surgery and he should rest).  Raquel on the other hand his being very calm. She is the mother cat. She is in my room barley moving or crying. I feel for her the most. We thought that she was pregnant when we took her in. (I made the appointment 6 weeks ago) but lucky for us she wasn’t… She just has been in a bad mood for a few weeks. I guess thats normal for YOUNG mothers. Raquel is only a year old, and when we got her we were told she was male… To our surprise we found out she was a girl when she was about 10 weeks  pregnant. (we aren’t really great pet people).

I made an appointment for our dog to get fixed in Dec. They claim it will make him calmer. I hope so. If anyone has ever met our dog, they could easily mistake him as a bouncy ball, I have NEVER seen any dog Jump as high as he can jump. He also feels the need to mark on EVERYTHING.

What else did we do today???

Ava and Aubrey had gymnastics. Aubrey is very crazy their. She runs from one thing to the next Always being ahead of everyone else, and quickly losing interest by the time everyone else got to the corner. I really get a work out on Tuesdays.

No soccer tonight. I don’t remember the last time I had a free evening from Soccer. I can smi-relax tonight. Anthony is working late, so I can’t relax too much.. But still… the kids are confined at home, it’s really nice.

Tomorrow we have a play group/ luncheon that I am really looking forward to doing. There are a lot of new people in our ward at church, and it looks like a lot of them are going to try and attend. I want to get a play group started with Aubrey & Ava this year. They get so bored. Ava has had a play group the last two days with different good, it would be nice to get them all done in one day.

I wish I had some fun stuff to write about, but really my life is pretty boring.

Anthony will be going on Marissa’s Field trip on Thursday. I wish I could go, but I volunteer in Zack’s class on Thursday. Anthony is looking forward to going.. So I am happy about that!  I think Marissa would rather her dad go with her  anyways. So she is happy as too.

Let’s see,

Today we woke up, got all the kids fed, the older three in their soccer clothes and out the door by 8:30. Zack had a game at 9, he did so well scoring 3 goals. He really gets in there and gets the ball.. We need to teach him how to pass and work together. But he knows the object.

Devun was next- They played a team from Vallejo that was very good. Devun knows how to team pass and was the main reason his team mate scored the two goals that they scored. Devun again is very good at getting the ball and kicking. He is getting a lot better.

Last but not least was Marissa’s game. She is very good had defense. She hasn’t made a goal yet & When she  was playing baseball she was one of the best. She is a little frustrated  But I know she will get a goal before the season is up.

We are home for a few hours before we are out the door again to the Ward Round UP. My kids can’t wait, its like a carnival to them and they love it.

Anthony thought he would have a week or so off with little work, and now looking at our calendar its full again. I know when you do what you are supposed to the lord does bless you. Temporally and spiritually.

If you would have told me last December that  in 6 months Anthony would be working for himself I would have said NO WAY, we would starve, we were starving then…..   I am just so thankful for all the blessings.

I love that Anthony is working so close, and I can run errands with him, and have lunch with him almost everyday. He’ll call me and ask what I am doing… And most of the time its nothing, so I will go pick him up and we’ll drive to Home Depot . Or he will pick me up. It just works…. Its helped me mentally, Anthony is my best friend! I love spending time with him, he always makes it fun… Even when its really boring.

We started the New Testament last night as a family. The lord as given us such a wonderful gift. I want to use them.. (scriptures) I want my children to gain the wisdom and knowledge that they need to become successful members of the church, to grow up with a firm testimony of the gospel and to want to share it with family and friends. I know that the light of Christ Shines when you do what the lord advises you to do. I want my children to SHINE.

Anthony just got home, I am off to the Gym and then the store before the Round up…

With exception to Devun and Scout Camp, my poor kids have been deprived of play dates and fun this summer. Today Zack said “I wish Emma (cousin) was here everyday, even Sundays so we could play”. Then as we ate lunch I told the kids hopefully we will have the baby before Friday. (Friday both people that volunteered to take our kids while we are at the hospital will be out of town for a week). Zack again responded with “Then we can have play dates”? I have been so busy trying to get my house in order, and getting everything I needed for when the baby came, that I have been to busy to book or schedule play dates. I am going to have to send an email out and invite some kids to go to the pool with us in the next day or so. I haven’t really wanted extra kids around or to drop off my kids at anyone’s house “just incase”. But summer will be over in a few weeks and we really have nothing to show for it. Besides a clean house, dinners in our freezer, and a clean car. We’ll it’s almost 2 I should go take a shower and get ready to take Devun to his Ortho. Appointment… Hopefully I will have an exciting birth story to tell you all. But again I still do have 21/2 weeks before my due date. Everyone including Anthony seems to think it will be on the 24th. That’s my grandfather’s birthday as well as Anthony’s mother’s birthday. If that happens it will have to be really early morning before everyone leaves for Vacation….. Or we will be taking all 5 to the hospital, like last time plus one….. (I am sure the Doctors will love that).