Sunday

October 26, 2009 at 6:56 am (Jens mind)

I worked with Anthony last night trying to clean 1 of 3 of his projects. I worked from 5 until 9:45, and after being at Soccer from 9-3, by ten I was done.  I knew that we needed milk and Diapers for the kids but I just couldn’t get the energy to make a late night trip to the store.

When I woke up this morning I have to be honest for this story to make sense, I didn’t really want to get out of bed for Church. Then a quick thought came to me that I needed to go to Sacrament.  So I could hear my kids wanted waffles due to the lack of milk. I got up and made them some. I went to the garage fridge to get some juice and guess what I found an extra gallon of milk that I didn’t know was in their.

Anthony and I got the kids in the shower and dressed as well as ourselves, then ten thirty comes along and we cannot find Aubrey’s shoes anywhere.  during the search for the shoes however we did find about five diapers (just enough to get us through Sunday) A quick thought came to me that Aubrey’s shoes where in the car, and they where (even after Anthony claims he checked).  I really felt the breads from heaven…..

We got to church a few minutes late, missed the opening song. But I knew as I sat there listing to the Bishop Confirm the Holy Ghost on a new member of the church I was meant to be  there. I felt the spirit so strongly during the confirmation, more than I have ever felt. I wish I could explain it- but I can’t say it in words.

For most of you, you know that I have a problem or addiction to Coke A Cola. a few weeks ago I “knew” I needed to quit, but it wasn’t until a few days ago I decided that I would. I had Anthony give me a fathers/husband blessing to help me through this recovery. I suffered major head aches, major fatigue and lots of anger. however in his blessing it say if I was succesful I would have more spiritual experiences.

Sacrament was wonderful and very spiritual, and all the talks just entwined with each others. We went to a baptism this evening, and then came home and read scriptures and watched church history. It was a great day. However something is bothering me. I felt the prompting to go and visit family after the baptism but failed to listen, hopefully we can go tomorrow.

I would say already the lords promise has been fulfilled.

also a funny little note, I went to laurels class and it was on the word of wisdom. and a reminder of the blessing that come to those that follow it.

My goal- start going to the gym again tomorrow. It wouldn’t be so hard if I didn’t have to go at 5:30 AM. (Anthony leaves to work at 7, and doesn’t get home until LATE… and Until Sam is 6 months old he can’t go to the nursery there).

My goal is to cut out the junk food, (not going to buy it anymore) drink lots of water and go to the gym 3-4 days a week. I know that there are great blessing that come with the word of wisdom, and I think its silly that its one of the hardest commandments for me to follow. I WANT THOSE BLESSINGS! and I know that I can get them. Just takes discipline

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October 14, 2009 at 2:11 am (Uncategorized)

Today just felt like a soup day. I made Taco soup in the crock pot for dinner, and it cooked long enough (before power went out) to be hot and ready to eat. So right now 3:30 we are sitting in the front room by the fire eating our dinner. It might be early, but other wise its just perfect. Warm belly’s on a cold and dark day.

Yesterday I earned an even greater appreciation for how hard my husband works. And I have decided that I am not going to spend his hard earned money anymore. Besides on bills and food etc.

I worked with him filling the ditch with rock and dirt after he put piping in. It was Hard WORK. and he does this labor intensive stuff all day everyday for hours each day. No wonder by sunday the man wants to come home and sleep. I wanted to go to bed at 7 last night. Forget dinner- I wanted to go right to bed. But instead I made breakfast for dinner (my kid’s favorit) and then read scriptures sent them to bed. I took a HOT bubble bath and then was blessed with bed. He is such a good dad, Sam was not ready for bed. And he walked the halls with him until he too fell asleep.

I learned a great lesson.It was a hard lesson.  I did enjoyed working side by side with Anthony. (and I am sure its something that I will get to do in the future), but right now I am going to enjoy being a stay at home mom. Dinner on the table when he gets home from work. and less shopping throughout the week.

The kids are happy, and yelling the powers on!!! So yes, the power is back on. I can now go and finish cleaning my house.

write  more later

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October 12, 2009 at 11:26 pm (Uncategorized)

I just got back from working for Anthony. He is pretty overwhelmed right now. He has a bathroom remodel that he started today, while he is in the middle of this rental house that seems to have problem after problem. (it’s very old) I went over today to move rocks for a drainage system that he is in the middle of doing. but after coming across a few complications I was asked to just go home..I felt so bad for him,  I know that he is doing this for our family, but I also know how stressed he is. So while  I drove home I thought I could go clean up. And that is what I did. I got my Vacume- that now needs to be replaced, and spent a good three hours over there cleaning up all the scrapped paint and ceiling mess that COVERED the carpet floors. I should have taken a before and after photo!

He has to go back at two for his inspection. and I have a feeling tomorrow while its pouring down rain, I will be in the middle of it moving rocks. But honestly as long as he is by my side, and the kids are safe I think it will be fun. Now I just need to find a baby-sitter…  We only have this week left to get the house done. Next week he starts a Kitchen remodel. And we all know that two jobs running at once is hard, but three is pretty near impossible if you want to make the clients HAPPY anyway!.

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Sammy’s blessing

October 12, 2009 at 8:35 am (Uncategorized)

As members of the church most know that once a month we have fast and testimony meetings. Normally it’s the first sunday of the month.Thats when baby’s are blessed, and confirmations are done. etc  This month we had conference the first sunday, so that left fast sunday for today..

after the baby was blessed I felt the need to bear my testimony, but I talked myself out of it by saying I just got up last month. No body wanted to hear me again…. Then Anthony tugged me again to tell me I should get up. I thought What do I say that I haven’t already said. Then I looked over at my son that was in Anthony’s grandmas arms, and I couldn’t believe with how blessed I have been & am. What could I NOT say. I have been giving such a wonderful husband. That loves me, and puts up with a ton of my crap. I have six healthy beautiful children. After all of Sammy’s tough days, he is home healthy and strong. and getting bigger and stronger everyday. When times are tough for most the world, Anthony has been blessed with ton’s of work. I am able to stay home with my children and still be able to provide for them. A few months ago I made a list of things I wanted to have, things we needed and people we owed money to (from months ago) that I wanted to be able to pay back. I found this note I had written to myself, and besides owning our own house and boat – (one day) I was able to cross off everything on that list.  And they are/where things I thought would take years to do.

I have a testimony when we follow commandments we will received rewards. we pay tithing every month, and we have seen wonderful blessing from it.. Even on days when we didn’t think we could eat if we paid. We still paid and food would turn up on are door step. Now if we didn’t have faith are woes would come. But when we had faith great things happen!

I don’t know how many times I can say it. But I love our savior, and I am so thankful for his sacrifice for me.I wouldn’t have an eternal family. I wouldn’t have the peace that I have now,knowing what is to come.

I am so thankful for my husband, and how in tuned he is with the spirit, and how he can give wonderful inspired blessing to our family when we need them(with 6 kids it’s a lot) I am thankful that I am able to have a large family, that love’s me and that I love.

I am thankful for our ward family. With out them I don’t know what I would do most days, They are my family. Example. When Sammy was in the hospital and we where waiting for family members to get into town. People would show up to take our kids to soccer, babysit free of charge, and dinners every night. dinners that keep showing up to this day. for my house cleaner. That really was the best thing that ever happened. I never knew how cleaning products worked up tell now. (thank you Linda Ann)

I am thankful for a house that may only be three bedrooms, is still big enough for our family. And with Patients I know one day we will have a home of our own. But until then, I am thankful with where we are at. Great area, great friends. Great Landlord.

I am thankful for my calling in church- I feel like I get to re live my youth, or better yet I get a second chance living through these girls. Which are so strong, and I love to hear their testimony when they speak.

I am thankful for the scriptures, and the peace I feel as I read them with my family or myself. I feel the power in the words, and know the church to be true. Jesus is the Son of our loving patient Father in Heaven.

Most of all, I know that Joseph smith was visited by the father and son, and restored The Gospel Of Jesus Christ.We are reading the New Testament as a family. I know that we are a part of Jesus Christ true church. It was off the earth for some years (dark Ages) and Joseph Smith indur the persecution, murders and was murdered for what he knew to be true, so we could have the blessings of prophets,& priesthood, current temples that bring eternal family’s and all the other blessings we have now. Greatest blessing is peace… President Ballard couldn’t have said it more clearly in Conference. LDS.ORG

So at the end of the day, I should have gone up are bared my testimony, because I know that this is the True Church of Jesus Christ. I owe my father in Heaven more than I could ever repay him. I can’t say Thank YOU enough.

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October 7, 2009 at 10:08 pm (Jens Thoughts)

Yesterday was my birthday, I have one more year to in joy before I am completely out of my twenties. Anthony got me some leather sofas about a month ago, and they got here just in time for him to say”Happy Birthday”. I do love them, they make my house feel cleaner. But I have to tell you the best gift of all was to be able to sit and talk to my husband and share stories with one another that we have never shared. We talked for a good hour, and compared each child to ourselves and shared stories of why we felt the way we did and it was wonderful. I just  can’t tell you how lucky I am to have an eternal companion, that I am head over heals in love with. (yes we have our fights) but at the end of the day he is the one I turn too. And the only one in my family that new it was my birthday.

Friday we went out with our good friends to a small little Italian place. The food was good, but to be able to go out and be with friends was better. I have never laughed so hard, I came home with a head ache. I am sure that the owners weren’t thrilled with us, but oh well. It was also the first time Sammy had a babysitter, and he didn’t like it.

We went to Anthony’s Grandmas house on Saturday. She lives in railroad flat, and asked us about three months ago if we would come out during the lumber jack festive.. We put in on our calendars and showed up as we said we would. She forgot that we where coming… We didn’t end up going to the lumber Jack thing, but we did stay at her house and visit for a while. It is hard to talk to her, because she has allstimers (don’t know how to spell) and it’s getting worse very quickly. He husband died over a year ago, and now she is in her house alone.  I worry about her, but there isn’t much that I can do.

Conference was very inspiring and uplifting for me on Sunday. I had questions, and they got answered.. I know  what I have to work on, and I know what I have to help my children with. I received all the answers I had prayed about, and that has put another marker on my testimony, and I know that Heavenly Father Loves Me, and wants me to be happy…( Conference is when the Prophet and his Apostles speak to us, it happens in Oct & April) www.lds.org

Work is going great for Anthony, He just finished up a Kitchen and Bathroom Remodel, and is now in the process of repairing and updating a rental house.. when he received the “go” on another Kitchen and Bathroom Remodel. He is also receiving calls on small repairs and such- so I was told to take the ad off Craig’s List for a few months. We called on Workers Comp Insurance, and most likely will be getting an employee by the end of the month. He just has NO idea who. He wants someone who knows how to do electrical and plumbing, but he doesn’t think he can find anyone with that knowledge who will work for twenty dollars an hour. We can’t pay anymore then that because workers comp cost way to much! We got a quote for a thousand dollars a month, but the employee can’t paint. Are you kidding me…. We are in Construction of course we need someone who can paint….

I have started walking Zack to school every morning. It’s great for Ava and Aubrey to get the fresh air, and Sam just sleeps in his pack. I figure I can only go to the gym three days a week, so i might as well get my excercise too walking…

I have given up fast food. After seeing how much money we spent in the past two months, I would rather keep my house cleaner. So for the past ten days I have been feeding the kids at home, then taking Anthony a packed lunch. It’s so much healthier. The only thing I am missing is Mc Donald’s has their Monopoly right now, and I love playing it…. I had to say to myself: Jen- over the past five years your have NEVER won ANYThing….. DO NOT FALL FOR IT!

I tried to give up coke again, but I think for right now I have to work on one weakness at a time.

Sam is very spoiled.  He either needs to be asleep in his car seat, or be held by me… I can’t seem to be able to get anything done. I did however put up all the Halloween lights up last night. He sat in his car seat screaming. Sometimes you just have to let them cry….. Right now he is sitting next to me screaming. He just ate, so I know he isn’t hungry.

Oh well, I have written a ton… Hopefully you will hear from me sooner then later.

Jen

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